My Testimony


My story

I was molested when I was 3 years old by a relative. This was a very traumatizing experience and by 5 years I thought sex was a game and therefore Okay. This experience activated me sexually and all I could think when I was growing up was sex. Imagine a toddler getting a boner at 6 years… Messed up.

I remember being picked around by my schoolmates in high school because I used to pee in my bed (one of the repercussions of molestation) A friend introduced me to pornography at 13 years and it felt that I found a part of me that I had been searching for since I was 3. I got hooked to it and would watch it, in even with friend and later on find a release in masturbation. I struggled with porn and masturbation for 13 years, but Jesus son of the Almighty God saved me at 25 years.

My turn around came when I admitted I have a problem after hearing several recovery testimonies at Mavuno church. I thereafter rededicated my life during the last event of a program called Mizizi (Rooted) at Mavuno Church. This was a 10 week transformational program that helps you connect with God, connect with other believers in church and connect with your purpose. Having an accountability partner and Scripture has played a big part in my healing which took a long 2 years partly due to lack of commitment.

Now, I have dedicated my life to helping guys just like me to get a solution to this drug, pornography, that got me so low, almost lost my job, my fiancée, my friends, my life. I now facilitate an iStopped recovery group at N.West where I take guys through a 10 week recovery program through the book Every man’s battle by Stephen Arterbun.

I live day by day reciting Romans 6:12-20. Though I still live in this flesh, I crucify my flesh everyday with Christ (Gal 2:20) as I am dead to sin, Christ is alive in me, I look to Christ each day to be my strength.

I started this site in response to God’s calling, He loved me much, and by His perfect will and grace he saved me from bondage. In turn, I give back to the world in this way, though nothing I ever do can ever compare to the love he has for me.

My inspiration

How dedicated are you to Christ?

It’s so weird how we take it for granted the freedom of worship we have in Kenya. I remember listening to a great man talking about how Christians in Somalia are suffering as they hold on to the name of Christ but never let it go. Rev. Adam Haji, a former Sheikh and Imam, now saved and a passionate about Christ, went through a tough time in Somali, his testimony ignited a passion in me that is still burning to this day. Rev Adam, was forced into exile after declaring in his local mosque that he was saved and now follows Issa bin Miriam (Jesus son of Mary).

Rev Adam went in exile for 8 months in a forest after he publicly announced his salvation to  his own family; his dad was so furious that he wanted to shoot him dead and plotted to kill him with poison. His best friend (also a new Christian converted from Islam) got all his limbs cut by his immediate family because he refused to denounce the name of Jesus Christ. He gave this story crying. He was rescued by UN volunteers and lived a life of secrecy, worshiping in other christians homes as one of them kept watch for the Somali Warlords at the door during every meeting.

Picture this, they used to share one bible between six people. You ask how? Each person tore a page in the bible, hid it in the buibui or kanzu (Muslim garments), went to the loo, read the page, the word of God, knelt and prayed and took it back in exchange for another.

In Kenya, we have freedom of worship, we have our bibles just next to our bedside, or at the top of the shelve just gathering dust yet someone out there really…really just wants such an opportunity to own a bible and read it. Why aren’t we dedicated to Christ? Imagine if you were in this situation. In Somali, if you are found by the Warlords and happen to be a christian, you are persecuted to death.

Well, that fellowship ended. Warlords touched the hats of worship down with the Christians inside. What would you do? Do you abandon Christ when broke? or when you get a lot of money/success? do blame God when you face trouble/ illness? Do you abandon Christ when you are in your deepest cave?

How dedicated are you to Christ? Remember what Jesus said, it is harder for a rich man to go to heaven than a camel to enter in the eye of a needle. What’s your stand? Do you believe in this great and might God? If you believe, are you a shaky Christian or are you passionate and right with Christ. God hates the sin not the sinner. He love you just the way you are.

Salvation

There is hope for all in Christ, murderers, fornicators, liars, thieves, gay, addicted, everyone! If you would like to accept Christ as your personal saviour or rededicate your life, pray this prayer,

“Heavenly Father

I come to you in prayer asking for the forgiveness of

my Sins.  I confess with my mouth and believe with my

heart that Jesus is your Son, And that he died on the

Cross at Calvary that I might be forgiven and have

Eternal Life in the Kingdom of Heaven.  Father, I believe

that Jesus rose from the dead and I ask you right now

to come in to my life and be my personal Lord and

Savior. I confess with my mouth that I am Born Again and Cleansed

by the Blood of Jesus!   In Jesus Name, Amen”

That if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” (Romans 10:9)

Call me or text me if you need someone to talk to or just for prayer on +254 720 730 226

Yours truly,

Ibra Gathungu.

i-Stopped.

  1. July 24, 2010 at 7:24 pm

    Hello, nice blog and very necessary. Many Christians struggle with sin but are too ashamed/proud? to admit it.

    God bless

    • July 24, 2010 at 10:16 pm

      Hi Kenya Christian,
      Thank you for the review. Please encourage guys struggling to visit the blog, I am working on a recovery program that will be long term. God has given me great courage and someday am sure you will see my story in the media God willling. Have a good weekend!
      i-Stopped.

      • natasha
        September 29, 2010 at 9:23 am

        my goodness, what a powerful blog!!!! be blessed abundantly.

      • September 29, 2010 at 10:46 am

        Thanks Natasha,
        God’s perfect will is in this initiative and I highly appreciate the feedback. God bless you too and spread the word to the men in your life. You never know they might be facing this issue.

  2. Gichohi Monicah
    January 24, 2011 at 3:25 pm

    If we confess we shall be forgiven and freed…….
    try it….it works

  3. Alan
    June 16, 2011 at 7:41 pm

    REally proud of you Ibra; keep it up…!

  4. October 29, 2011 at 12:29 am

    i love your material…jaw has dropped!! so detailed, so relevant so accurate. and ur passion for God, waaaah…challenge for me right there.

    • November 1, 2011 at 7:11 pm

      Hey Fearless Nazirite,
      Thanks for the encouragement, please spread the word so that many more might here about the God and the blog and get healing. Porn is so real and its a real addiction.

  5. Samuel Mwai
    December 28, 2011 at 11:06 am

    Ibra,

    You are truly inspirational

  6. Ruthie
    April 12, 2012 at 7:25 pm

    Ibra,
    the first step to recovery is confession and acknowledging there is a problem. You overcame and God in His amazing grace took you back. I am inspired, there is nothing too big for Him to handle if we take it to Him in prayer.

    • April 16, 2012 at 6:10 pm

      Hey Sue,
      I totally agree. Thanks for the support. Spread the word, encourage someone who need it. You will be shocked how many guys need to real and reach out for help. Baraka.

  7. November 9, 2012 at 1:57 pm

    You are very candid. May your stories and experiences touch many !

    • November 9, 2012 at 2:04 pm

      Thanks Project44, keep me in your prayers so that I continue with this good work

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