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Dreams and Sex

March 26, 2014 1 comment

I great you all in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord and savior. Today I blog about sex dreams and the part they play in sexual sin. It was at around 3am, on 2 nights, the 24th and 25th Mar 2014, when I got very vivid sexual dreams, that could be equated to a sexual experience. The exaggerated familiarity of some of the faces in the dreams and the extreme pulled me to do what I resolved not do. The intensity and disgust left within my spirit left a bitter taste in my mouth. The dream was not just sex with a woman, but was borderline weird fetish-like to nightmare. This thing defiling me was definitely not of this world. I remember feeling that this was my sister, though I looked at her and she looked nothing like it. “A familiar spirit”. The setting was on the bed that I grew up on at my parents place. When I wake up I sensed the peril that lied before me. Nothing that I can explain I have seen or experience. Therefore, my conclusion was that the devil simply wanted to defiled my spirit so that I can fall to my previous devices – using malevolent forces because he knew I was strong in the Holy Spirit against sexual temptation in the physical realm. I was so disturbed that I couldn’t go to work the last day.Image

I am encouraged by the word in Deut 28:7 knowing the devil is a defeated foe.

(Deut 28:7 The LORD will grant that the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you. They will come at you from one direction but flee from you in seven.)

It is funny how in this life, battles won elsewhere can easily be lost on other grounds.The past few weeks have been filled with battle and to the glory of God, victory over sexual temptation. An argument may be used that I might exposed myself to sensuality  thus this experience. On the contrary I have been consistently proactively engaging the battle plan;

  • eyes- bouncing my eyes from all lustful looks,
  • mind – using the word as a sword and my faith as a shield
  • heart – fighting for my relationship with God, marriage, child(ren) and future

I did a bit of study on this a while back and I came across a demon called “succubus”. This is a female demon believed to have sexual intercourse with sleeping men. I have no reference of this in the bible, but I know that the bible doesn’t answer all questions we might have. So, upon waking up that day, I prayed through the power of the Holy Spirit and by the shed blood of Jesus on the cross against the spirit of succubus. The demon has no power over me anymore and even if it comes back, I will keep fighting it. James 4:7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Many people do not know this, but what happens in the spiritual realm manifests in the physical realm. To put it to context, the dreams that I had were meant to create a feeling of sinful sexual desire, guilt and self condemnation; so that I resolve to get satisfaction from anything other than my wife.  Some men won’t really see the sense in this argument, but the motive of this is to drive you to sexual immorality. The spirit realm work very differently from the physical one.

I give glory to God because I can reach out to Him, through his Son Jesus in prayer and to a group of prayer warriors at that time. In summary;

  1. I prayed against spirit of succubus and cancelled every evil effect of the dreams in Jesus name,
  2. I sent a distress call to my G7 group, a sexual accountability group for prayer
  3. I talked to my wife who also prayed with me about it
  4. My defenses went on an all time high. I was encouraging myself with scripture constantly, just like Jesus fought temptation against the devil with scripture.

If you are or have gone through this, the solution is simple,

1. Surrender to God , know the truth

  •  1 John 1:6  If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth (about Jesus).
  • 2 Thessalonians 2:10  and in every sort of evil that deceives those who are perishing. They perish because they refused to love the truth (about Jesus) and so be saved.
  • 2 Thessalonians 2:13  But we ought always to thank God for you, brothers loved by the Lord, because from the beginning God chose you to be saved through the sanctifying work of the Spirit and through belief in the truth.

2. Against the devil play offense, but against sexual sin play defense, 

  • “Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body.” 1 Cor 6:18

1 Samuel 27: In a season of unfaithfulness turn to prayer

September 27, 2012 Leave a comment

From: 1 Samuel 27: In a season of unfaithfulness turn to prayer.

With such a heroic Biblical character like David, it’s hard to believe that at times he would struggle with his faith. However, after being hunted down day after day by Saul it looks as though David has finally hit a breaking point.

“Then David said in his heart, “Now I shall perish one day by the hand of Saul. There is nothing better for me than that I should escape to the land of the Philistines. Then Saul will despair of seeking me any longer within the borders of Israel, and I shall escape out of his hand.” (Verse: 1)

David might not have said this out loud to anyone. But he says it in the heart, which is where the true sin nature of our lives manifest themselves. David in his heart now feels as though that he will die by the hand of Saul if he continues to live in Israel. And despite all the works that the Lord has done in his life in order to keep him safe from the hands of Saul, David feels as though it is up to him to leave Israel and move in amongst the pagan worshiping Philistines in order to survive.

“And David lived with Achish at Gath, he and his men, every man with his household, and David with his two wives, Ahinoam of Jezreel, and Abigail of Carmel, Nabal’s widow. And when it was told Saul that David had fled to Gath, he no longer sought him. (Verses: 3 &4)

Hence, David is going through a time where his faith is starting to waiver. But, instead of crawling back toward the Lord seeking his grace, he runs even further away from him toward to a land of false Gods, which was the exact fear David talked about in chapter 26.

“for they have driven me out this day that I should have no share in the heritage of the LORD, saying, ‘Go, serve other gods.’(1 Samuel 26:19)

So often this is the case in our own lives. When he feel a time of hardships, troubles and grief come over us, instead of falling depend upon the Lord we run from him. We look to our own abilities to fix our struggles instead of seeking fellowship with the sovereign Lord who can heal.

And what’s troubling about this chapter is that not once do we see David seeking council from the Lord. Instead, he elects to follow his own will in order to fix the struggles of his heart.

For that reason, the biggest recommendation I have for readers is to pray. Pray consistently throughout the day and allow your heart to open up to the Lord in order to further the maturity of your faith and feel his presence upon you.

Prayer is the strongest way we can personally fellowship with God. Therefore, look at your own prayer life in order to help determine how much personal fellowship you are having with the Lord daily. As fellowship leads to faithfulness in the Lord and keeps us continuing to seek his grace in all situations that follow.

His Humbled Servant,

W.H. Carston

Diary of a recovering addict

August 6, 2012 1 comment

It is so unfortunate when one is on the journey of life, he has to be burdened with so much baggage. Baggage from past broken relationships, baggage from wounds inflicted by others, baggage from sins committed or hidden sins within.
This is how I feel every time I fall to sin, whether lying, greed, pride, lust, boasting etc. Why is the heart so deceitful? Why is the mind so prone to lying to my spirit?

“I can do this alone” it says to the heart, “Since God has sorted me out so many times, I now can do this on my own”. This is a reality to me. I have found my heart being deceitful to my spirit and the battle within me as a man has gotten more intense lately. I am going through a course called Man Enough, by Transform Kenya. A course that has defined the base of what a man should be and what God wants me to be. Through it all, I realized that all men struggle; either with women, money, power and success, or an addiction. I will not lie to you, mine are addictions, power and success. Each man needs to know what their weaknesses are to finish well.

The Holy Spirit searches me, and knows my heart of all the deceitful ways. All the mess and junk that the ways of my flesh hide in my heart. The crap that I have to think and do against God’s word. My spirit is so willing to change, to obey, to live for God. I am encouraged that Paul in Romans 7 went through this phase and triumphed over the enemy. God created me to worship Him, to be broken before Him, to give my baggage to Him and love like He loves me. What can I do? How can I change the desires of my sinful nature? How can I remain pure? Psalms 119:9 says “…by hiding the word of God in my heart”

The holy spirit can test me and know my anxious thoughts. (Psalms 139) He can lead me to channel all my flesh (sin) led anxiety to God my father through Christ Jesus. God is able to do, just what He said He would do. So, I find hope in this time, as I am a sinner saved by God’s grace, that someday, I will dine with God in heaven.

And for you, the same God that knows my jumbled thoughts, accepts me with my sinful nature, strengthens me to keep fighting, loves me even when I deserve his wrath, can accept you as you are.

The Holy Spirit takes all the thoughts that make God sad, lets say a guy who is sinful, He takes his story and if you repent makes them HISTORY.

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